The Secret Language of Sisters - Luanne Rice
And I’m hardly ever late, that’s the thing. I tend to be so on time it drives some people—namely my sister, Tilly—crazy. She says I make her look bad. Right now she’s waiting for me to pick her up at the river museum, and I should have been there five minutes ago.
It is four o’clock on Saturday afternoon, bright, clear, and cold. Driving through the marshes, I see ice on the banks, sparkling on the golden grasses and the splintery old dock. The Connecticut River is nearly frozen over, but it turns dark blue in the wide-open sections where it meets the salt water of Long Island Sound, and the late-afternoon February light is perfect. I slow down to take another shot.
I am unfashionably into landscapes; I apologize to no one. I park my dad’s old Volvo in the sandy lot behind the bait shop, shuttered for winter. Grabbing my camera, I cross the street to snap a few shots of cold winter sunlight on the broken ice.
The phone in my pocket buzzes. I ignore it and keep taking photographs. I had set today aside to do this, but driving Tilly around has cut into my plans. I can’t help that I’m a little compulsive about getting things done, and if one thing has to slide today, it’s going to be punctuality. My portfolio for the Serena Kader Barrois Foundation Photography Contest needs more work. Although it’s not due until June, I want it to be as perfect as I can make it, and capture these winter days. I’m a junior and want to apply to Yale early decision. The award would boost my chances of being accepted at my dad’s old university, but it also includes a thousand-dollar scholarship, and that would help my mom a lot, no matter where I go.
Just as important as the scholarship: If I win, I’ll dedicate the prize to Dad. I think that’s partly what’s got Tilly acting so mad at me. He died last summer, and to say we both miss him is a slight understatement, like saying the sun is bright. Taking pictures of nature is my way of staying connected to him, making him feel alive to me. Tilly and Dad used to go owling, searching for the owls that live in the woods at the far end of the beach. She hasn’t returned to the owls since he died, hasn’t found a way to keep him close.
I miss him so much, glancing over at the car actually hurts. It was his before he died. There’s a shadow in the front seat, cast by the bait shack, and for one sharp instant I pretend it’s his ghost or, even better, him. I’ll get in the car, and he’ll be there, and we’ll go pick up Tilly, and none of the last year will have happened.
Another buzz. My fingers are stiff from the cold, but I pull the phone from my jacket pocket and check. Four texts: Two are from Tilly. Where are you? And then, I mean it, WHERE ARE YOU? My heartbeat picks up—her anxiety is contagious, and I write her back: On my way, O impatient one!!!
And she is impatient, my little sister. Two years and a lifetime younger than I am. The world revolves around Mathilda Mae. Well, it always has for me, anyway. I’m sure I had some normal sibling jealousy, being the first child, then having her come along. Mostly, I adore her and try to protect her. Sometimes I feel like her mother. Still, she can be incredibly annoying.
The third text is from Isabel Cruz, my best friend. She’s also entering the photo contest, and she has shot me a picture of the shrine to the Virgin of Guadalupe in her mother’s bedroom. The photo shows the most recent addition: Her mother is constantly making offerings, and now the brightly colored doll has four dead roses, no doubt taken from one of the tables her mom had cleared that day, wedged into her veil.
I write back, Brava, preciosa! Then I take a photo of the bait shack’s faded sign with my phone and send it to her.
The fourth text is from my boyfriend, Newton. How can I explain what one question from him can do to me? We have been together for so long, through the best of times and the worst of times. He sat in the row behind me at my father’s funeral, and I reached back to hold his hand through